by the fans for the fans

A story I'll never be able to forget (because friends keep bringing it up) is how 20 some years ago we were hanging out somewhere, these two girls were there and apparently one of them liked me. Well her friend came over to me and told me that her friend over there didn't want to be standing over there by herself.

My reply was to ask her why she left her alone then?

that's great but so mean lmao! And well since I am buzzed af I might as well confess somethiung lol

I told y'all the story about how my ex cheated on me? Well he didn't knwo thuis but I only stayed with his ass for the free weed <333333
then drama became overwhelming and I said fuck it. But free weed fuck who wouldbn't want that? He grew it himself too so grade A quality <3

omg I said I was starting slow and almost on third bottle now! and still waiting on my friend and hes likes what am i supposed to fly ovrer traffic to get homer? my answr is is yes! do it bitch lmao

Looks like I didn't butcher the english language too badly last night

BUT I am fuckin hungover as shit today, my fault ofc because I didn't drink enough water beforehand

and that movie my friend and I watched last night was so horrid we couldn't wait for it to end lmao oh god good thing I was drinking because I don't think I could have made it through 10 mins of that shit sober. Oh and chat got weird too later on, apparently me and another drunk friend went full lesbo while another was spamming gay porn. Oh what a night that was! No hand shoved up my ass either <3

TGIS or thank god it's Sunday, and TWD Sunday too please! Streams better not fuck up tonight </3

I slept in late to make day shorter lol and now I'm stiff all over and I ache. Just dealt with hell spawn lovebird who wants to rip my throat out. Cleaned her cage and changed her water dish all while she was trying to attack me, so I had to ward her off with a water bottle. My hands they are useless and she will draw blood if she can. Believe me she wants to. Vicious little thing.

Tiki on other hand is good, he slept in late with me then again he always sleeps when I do, and now hes sitting by his dish looking at me even though hes got seeds in there. But he's spoiled and he doesn't want seeds he wants me to make something lol. Not now dammit I am sore FFS and it hurts to move. Haven't even decided on what I'm making for dinner later.

Didn't cook last night instead my dinner consisted of chips, soda, and water. One of my friends had chips and vodka. I'd rather have that tbh. Well he has an excuse he doesn't know to cook, whereas I do! so I'm just being lazy

When I'm lazy I just make sandwiches. Wal Mart has this "sub kit" which is a big package of ham+turkey, or ham+salami. Of course I don't make subs, just sandwiches, so that makes a LOT of sandwiches! I'll be eating sandwiches for the next week at least.

I haven't shopped there for a while now, but when I have it seems the only decent crap they have is in the deli or bakery even. A lot of the times I've gotten chips or something and they were stale. Price wise not bad at all, but the store by me has sales all the time thankfully and so I buy in bulk and freeze what I can. Most of what I have is canned stuff and pasta , lots of pasta and ofc sauce!

Speaking of food I've lost weight again lol can barely wear this one pair of jeans even with a belt now. My gawd I must be back at 120 or something, but I wear mostly leggings anyway, got my faux leather ones on rn <3 I prefer them cause they're stretchy and I don't need a belt! But damn its always a shocker when something doesn't fit like it used to

Oh and btw my stream was laggy as hell tonight </3 What I saw of the episode was good though, gotta rewatch when it goes up at midnight. Oh and they brought back easy street, those trolls! But its a short moment thankfully.

How do you eat nothing but pasta and only weigh 120?

I have a very fast metabolism, but my doctor also thinks it could be caused by my autoimmune disease too. I've been thin my whole life And pasta aint the only thing I eat but carbs in general, yes. Tonight I actually had chicken for a change, cause I didn't want pasta again lol

and this is random but my bird now smells like cool ranch doritios, so I'd say hes had enough of those for tonight.

So my medical insurance sent me a survey last week, yeah one that is like 4 pages long ugh!!! And I didn't do it because fuck them! Well if that wasn't bad enough I get a little reminder card in the mail yesterday telling me they haven't received my survey yet and I'm just like WTF?

Well first of all, I will only fill out and mail in that survey on the grounds that they take my answers and shove them right up their fuckin ass! Because that would make up for every single shitty fucking mistake they've made that has made my life hell!

Especially referring me to a quack neurologist who couldn't fucking tell I had weakness on the left side of my body, and made me feel like it was all in my head FFS, yet the physical therapist I was seeing for my fibromyalgia could fucking tell right away and even worked with me to try and regain strength on that side. The weakness is caused by migraines but I experience a rare type known as hemiplegic migraine which basically mimics the symptoms of a stroke and causes weakness on one side of the body. For me it's my left side and because I had so many bad attacks, its more or less left me with some permanent damage, meaning I probably won't ever fully regain that strength.

And an idiot neurologist couldn't even see that? Ugh okay I'm ranting now lmao sorry!!!!!
I'm just so fed up with stupid people, even more so when they bother me wanting something from me, especially after all the shit they put me through. I just want to tell them to fuck off at this point, and I thought about changing my provider but from what I've read about the others, they aren't any better!

Maybe devil's advocate here but there is so much fraud with people claiming to have conditions and need meds, only to turn around and sell those on the black market, that doctors HAVE to be skeptical and overly cautious whenever someone tells them that they have a condition.

I'd say it's a few bad apples ruining the bunch, but it's a lot more than a few.